Sunday, March 24, 2013

Both Sides




So much is happening here in Tucson.  We are, at least to some degree, at the epicenter of all things immigration related.  And while so much has happened in the last few months, I’d like to tell you all more about my last trip.  I had a delegation a week ago; it was a group of law students from the University of the District of Columbia.  There were eight of them.  Many of them are not planning on working at large law firms, but rather at places where they can become involved in social justice issues in their communities.  I enjoyed hearing about the good work they have done or are planning on doing once they graduate.  We had a full trip; in five days, we spent two in Mexico, one in Tucson, and the other two in Florence and Phoenix. 

They were motivated and inspired the whole delegation which was great to be a part of as their trip leader.  They told me something in one of the group reflections that really hadn’t hit me until then.  “Tucson is the new Selma.” I’ve heard it before, but I didn’t know it until I really felt it on this trip.  There is a movement, a social justice movement, happening right here and right now. 

The trip began in Mexico where we spent time at a community center called HEPAC, Home of Hope and Peace.  This is where we stay when we go into Nogales, Sonora.  I’m starting to feel like it’s a second home for me when I’m not at the MVS house.  It’s located on a hill in a colonia or neighborhood called Bellavista (beautiful view).  As a community center, they focus on community grassroots organizing in creative ways with programs specifically for women and children.  With all of the maquiladoras (factories-mostly U.S. owned) on the Mexican side of the border, mostly a result of the 1994 NAFTA, children need a safe place to be when their mothers work 8-12 hour shifts.  HEPAC is one of those places. 

Among the many things that we did in Mexico, including speaking with migrants who have been recently deported, we ate lunch in someone’s home.  I can remember as a child the first time I saw poverty.  I was seven; it was when my parents took me with them on their sabbatical to Central America.  I remember seeing people sleeping on the ground in parks and on sidewalks.  Alive lumps.  I’ve seen poverty since then too on my various travels in the world, but there was something about this particular woman’s home that really struck me.  She welcomed us so graciously into her dark cardboard tin home.  The floor was rocky – it was uneven dirt.  Without any shyness she said she knew it was a little small but to come in anyway.  There was an element of great pride and respect in her demeanor that made such an impression on me.  This short, beautiful Oaxacan woman from Southern Mexico has forever changed and touched my heart.

We crossed back into the U.S. the next day.  My Mexican co-leader asked that I drive the van through the border itself and the checkpoint that we later have to pass through.  Of course I said yes.  We waited in line for more than an hour.  They let me through without much hassle, and I picked everyone up at the McDonalds on the other side.  As I was driving through the checkpoint, a border patrol agent was letting cars go through without question but as soon as he peered in the car and saw that we were not all white, he yelled at me and started hitting the van, “stop, stop, STOP!  First time going through a checkpoint?” he asked.
“No” I told him. 
“Drive over into secondary and they’ll do an immigration check on you.”  It’s always the same going through the checkpoints.  When I have a group of all white people we pass through easily.  When we’re not all white, things are different. 

The next day the law students did legal consultations at a local community organization.  I spent the day observing and interpreting for the consultations and the Know Your Rights Presentation.  Most of the consultations delivered sad news.  “So your brother applied for a visa in 2001? I’m sorry but they are currently processing family sponsored F4 visas from 1996 for Mexico.  Wait maybe another five years and then check.”  One older woman told me, “Well I guess I’ll just tell my brother to come over without papers since I’ll probably be dead by the time this gets processed.” 

That evening we met with youth from Tucson.  Three of them are undocumented; all are trying to go to college.  Those who are undocumented do not get in-state tuition because they don’t have a social security number.  Although their presentation always stirs me up emotionally, this night was particularly moving.  They are good students; they want to be at their best.  They have dreams.  The U.S. is their home.  It is so hard to hear about the fear that they live with everyday…but then they talk about what they are doing together – how they look out for each other, how they are a family.  They are fighting this fight for generations after them and for their parents who had no other choice but to come here to survive.  These 17, 18, 19 year olds are the future and they are not giving up; they are the change. 

The next morning we drove to Florence and saw the barbed wire keeping people inside private detention centers and county jails.  Florence is literally a prison town – there are five of them in this small town.  The county jail that rents out beds for detainees was named one of the ten worst in the nation.  The food in inedible, there is no place for recreation.  Somehow windows count as running in the fresh air.  People take turns standing in front of the windows every day so they can feel the sun.  Many say their skin starts to turn a yellow color.  Visitations are done over an old monitor with a phone that has a bad connection.  Thirty minutes and your time is up.  Click.  Adios. 

Later that day we drove to Phoenix.  We spoke with lawyers and community organizers.  There is so much to be done, but there are good people trying to create change.  Later we ate dinner with a group of queer undocumented youth.  Like the first group of undocumented students, this group shared their stories.  Not only are they fighting for rights as undocumented people, but they also face additional challenges as queer people in the Latino community, a community that doesn’t accept and/or views LGBTQ identity as taboo.  These young people pushed me to further believe in their passion and desire to create change.  They are inspiring, remarkable, brave and alive.  We left exhausted, physically and emotionally. 

Our last delegation day included a visit to the ACLU and Tent City Jail.  I guess you’re never really prepared to see that sort of thing…you don’t want to believe it’s happening, that it has been happening for the last 20 years.  We walked up to the vine covered chain-linked fence to see what was inside.  It was as if someone had taken a snapshot photo of a concentration camp.  There are watch towers and warning signs posted everywhere.  The worst was looking inside at the conditions that people live in.  The detainees were walking around in their stripped uniforms.  Only women were visible from where we were standing.  They sleep in dark green army looking tents with rusty bunk beds.  It doesn’t look like there is air conditioning or heat.  They started shouting out for help when they saw us.

Overall, the trip was painfully brilliant.  There was deep sadness, grief and despair, but there were also times of great laughter and inspiration.  This is what I get to do once a month.  I get to hear, see, and learn.  I am a witness.  A few days after it was over, I found myself sobbing without being able to articulate why but knowing that I was holding in what I had seen on the delegation.  I was a chaotic mess.  That’s the beauty of what’s going on down here.  There is love, there is pain, there is conflict.  All the while, I’m trying to find God in all of this.  I’m trying to find God’s promise-God’s hope and love…and I finally found some of it on this trip.  I found it in the house that we ate lunch in in Mexico, I found it in the purse that someone left in the desert as they were crossing, I found it in the desperation of those seeking legal advice, I found it in the undocumented youth’s stories, and I found it in me.   I find God’s hope and promise in the relationships and the interactions that I have with the people here – my delegation participants, the migrants who are crossing again in the morning, the border patrol, the children at the community center and the women going to work in the maquilas for their 6pm shift. 

The movement is here.  It begins inside each of us and spreads as we connect with those around us.  It cannot end.